OCTOBER 3RD 2024 // 9:03PM CET
man, the day isn't even over and i'm tired! so yeah. let's recap.
i had it class first. showed my teacher this website. she was speechless and very proud of me!
she also gave be a late birthday gift (i turned 18 in july) which consisted of the cutest plush from
coco cones (the ones with the big glittery eyes) and a skull shaped candle. protect this woman at all costs. she's too sweet.
after that i had math. i have a new teacher, she's cool, i just hate math itself and ended up crying
because i felt stupid.
then 2 hours of english, which were a blast. i can always just talk with my teacher and we end up going on complicated tangents lol. fun.

the rest of the day was spent listening to music and a little bit of coding. not super interesting.
i'm kind of bored. bored of youtube videos too. idk what to do. maybe i'll draw assets for other pages for this site.
there's so much i wanna do... i want this site to be a bit of a maze lol. a lot of things you can click and get lost in.
one day, one day... also, i'm considering completely changing the main parts of the site. make new assets, maybe change the layout, make it more interesting.
i love seeing the sites that are full of secrets. they're fun!
anyway, i think i'll go work on stuff now. i want something to do and i want this site to get better. :D

OCTOBER 2ND 2024 // 11:04PM CET
first entry on this blog! exciting! ive never successfully made a habit of blogging, but maybe i finally should.
so, what do i even write about? i guess i can just write about whatever's on my mind.
i'm really happy i decided to learn to code and make this website. i've always thought i'm too
dumb to ever be able to code anything myself. yet here i am! making a website without a website builder!
i'm so excited about the whole thing. i feel so powerful right now. like i can recreate my soul using code
and make it into a website, an interactive piece of art that anyone can enjoy.

i love putting on some energetic music and just coding away these days.
it makes me happier than i thought it would. this site is a week old and i'm doing so well.
i'm also starting school again soon. i mean, i already have. today. but tomorrow's gonna be for real. i'm both
dreading it and excited about it. one one hand, i wont be able to stay up at insane hours to code, but on the other,
i can show my favorite teacher (she teaches it class) this website. we've done some classes on html but i didn't
remember shit from those. but now i'm quite good! we'll see if she thinks it's impressive that i learned so much
in a week like my friend does.

to be honest, i kinda wish i could delete most of my social media and mostly use this website to share stuff,
maybe also bandcamp, youtube and distribute my music, but i don't think that's possible for me, considering all the
friends i made on platforms like instagram. ive been on there the longest, since like 2019, so thats 5 years already.
i can't leave those people behind... so i guess i'll stay there.
at least i deactivated my twitter. i hate twitter. i wasn't using it anyway. had bots following me as the only notifs
when i did log on the few times. twitter sucks. the internet seems to be going downhill without an end.
at least neocities gives me an escape from all that. an escape from all the pain, bullying, drama and other shit like that.here i can see people being their true, authentic selves, without fear, without being harrassed off the platform for being genuine. never forgetting the time i vowed to never go back to tiktok because of how toxic people were to me just because i was a cringy emo 14-year-old who cared a lot about things and wanted to be unapologetically himself. but here, here is safe. i'm glad here exists. i'm glad i decided to become a part of here.
thanks for reading all this lol. it felt nice to get it all out. =>